
In his most recent post, here, Doug Stockdale said:
I just wanted to get a visualization of my feelings of detachment, separation anxiety, loneliness and sadness that occasionally came with my extensive travel. It is not a memoir, although it does have autobiographical elements, I want to create the experiences. You don’t have to go mad to be able to write about madness, eh?
He was talking about his most recent project, Insomnia: Hotel Noir. This particular post really hit home because it’s what I feel from time to time. Also, I know that I want to explore this photographically, but am not quite sure which way to go. Mind you, I’m not feeling all melancholy, but the constant change, every weekend, is a bit unsettling. I start to feel like I have no place to call home. There’s only a Monday-Thursday night stop, then a Friday-Sunday night stop, then the loop repeats.
No. I don’t feel sorry for myself, but it is interesting to me to look around and try to capture that feeling visually. A typical Friday for me is to get up, make sure that the kitchen is clean, gather all of my dirty clothes, suitcase, etc. and put them into the car. Leaving work at about 4:00 PM, I get onto I-26, which is always jam packed with traffic for the first 5 or 6 exits. Around about 5:30 or so, I arrive in Columbia, SC, where I stop at exit 5 off of I-77 and grab some Chick-Fil-A. Next stop, NC. I roll into the driveway around 7:30 PM, greet the dog, who is always the first one to the door, greet the wife, and sometimes even Tony, when he’s home.
Sunday night, a small bit of anxiety creeps in, as I know that it is nearing bedtime and almost time to leave. 5:00 AM signals the time to get up, get dressed, and head back down the road. I try to switch up the routine and stop in a different place for gas, etc. but as the routine is so pat, I seem to stop in the same place, get hungry at the same time, and see the same people. Excellent material for a series, I think.
Monday-Thursday, consists of working, coming home, browsing the blogs that I read, practicing a bit of my harmonica, perhaps watching a bit of TV, then off to slumber land. Although we talk on the phone, daily, I miss the in-person conversations with my wife. We talk a lot. I can handle a lot of alone time. I’m not one that needs to be around a constant crowd. My very good friend, Richard, keeps me company sometimes. We talk on the phone several times per week for quite a bit. Most of the times it’s very light-hearted and I usually end up laughing quite a bit. He has an interesting take on life!
Somehow, I’ll want to capture these moments … for personal reasons. They are interesting, to me. I look forward to seeing what Doug puts into his series. Not to copy it, but to see what his experience is and what he found important to include.
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